Quilts I've Made
3 months ago
The Lord has given me the desire of my heart.
To be wife and then a Mama.
What joy there is in that word-Mama. To know that I am my little man's favorite person in the WHOLE WORLD just makes me smile!
When I walk into the room and he smiles so big his entire face lights up-I just melt!
There is such JOY in the every day!
Every little smile.
Every little coo.
Every little milestone.
Who would think that in two months one little man would change our lives so much?
I love it.
I love being a Mama-
truly, there is no greater joy than serving Jesus in my roles
as wife and mam.
I started this a few days ago and am now just publishing it! Better late then never ;)
I am sitting in the dining room with my sweet little boy sleeping in the swing. The dishwasher is chugging away. An early lunch I made for my love is sitting on the stove waiting to be put away.
It is peaceful in here.
I just realized how peaceful it was. In spite of some things.
It is not my dining room. My baby boy is not sleeping in his swing. It is not our dishwasher chugging away. It is not our stove that heated up my husbands lunch.
I have been struggling these past few weeks, well ok, months, with-contentment. We are truly believing that the Lord has us moving on to the next chapter of our lives and right now that means that we are having to wait.
I have been doing a lot of looking around at others and comparing what they have that I don't have.
Not really a good idea...
I am learning the importance of being content in the here and now. Not looking around at others but instead realizing the importance of just looking at Jesus.
Only Him.
I need to keep reminding myself of that. Look only to Jesus...and believe that He knows what is best for this time of waiting.
I am sitting in the dining room with my sweet little boy sleeping in the swing. The dishwasher is chugging away. An early lunch I made for my love is sitting on the stove waiting to be put away.
It is peaceful in here.
I just realized how peaceful it was. In spite of some things.
It is not my dining room. My baby boy is not sleeping in his swing. It is not our dishwasher chugging away. It is not our stove that heated up my husbands lunch.
I have been struggling these past few weeks, well ok, months, with-contentment. We are truly believing that the Lord has us moving on to the next chapter of our lives and right now that means that we are having to wait.
I have been doing a lot of looking around at others and comparing what they have that I don't have.
Not really a good idea...
I am learning the importance of being content in the here and now. Not looking around at others but instead realizing the importance of just looking at Jesus.
Only Him.
I need to keep reminding myself of that. Look only to Jesus...and believe that He knows what is best for this time of waiting.
As I ponder where I have found God this week I would have to say in my little man and in his smiles.
This past week it just seems as though His little personality has really began to shine and his smiles have become more and more frequent.
I love it!
This is Elijah and his Aunt Abby. He LOVES mirrors and she had him cooing and laughing. It was just the sweetest thing!
I see God in his sweet smile.
My little man is getting so very content. Sometimes he smiles and I just wonder what he is thinking as I look into his laughing eyes.
I see God in his sweet smile.
Sometimes Elijah will almost laugh at me and my heart melts as I laugh at his sweet little scrunched up face.
I see God in his sweet smile.
The Lord has so blessed me! Truly when I look at this picture and see my handsome prince and my precious little man-
I see God in our smiles.
This morning I was reading Elijah Psalm 139 and was struck by these verses:
13 "For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be."
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be."
As I have watched Elijah grow and change and smile more this past week I have been amazed. This morning I really was in awe just how amazing God is and what a miracle each life is! To think that the Lord knew each and everyone of us even before anyone else knew that we even existed! Truly mind-blowing!
This week-I found God in a smile-and it reminded me of what an amazing Creator God is.
Where did you find God this week? Head over to Created To Be His to link up and share your story! :)
So lately I have been wanting to blog. Really! I look at all these amazing women on other blogs that I follow and I wish that I could be a Mom like them or a wife like them. To me their life seems absolutely perfect and I know all to well...
...my life is not perfect.
That is humbling.
So here I sit wanting to blog about the cloth diapers that I used, the completely natural 17 hour labor that I had, the amazing whole foods I have been making for my family, my clean house, the latest DIY project I have been doing, the latest devotional the Lord has laid on my heart and so many other things. Yet. I can't.
Real life of Katy here:
I wanted to use cloth diapers, even bought them. They are adorable and I love them. However, when little man was two weeks old we took a trip to NY and they got left behind. So, he has been in pampers for his entire 6 week life.
Now, there is a really neat alternative (completely chemical free and plant based disposables) that I will be using that I just found and LOVE (more on that later) but still-I wanted to do cloth.
I was so set on a natural home birth. I had it all planned out in my mind and was SO excited for it. Then-my blood pressure rose and I ended up in a hospital with a birth that EVERYTHING I did not want to happen-happened.
I felt HORRIBLE for having an epidural and really struggled with GUILT that I was not a good enough Mom for my son just because I could not handle the pain (my labor was induced).
The thing was though that once I got the epidural I was able to sleep for a few hours which I really needed for when I started to push (considering I had not eaten anything and had not really slept well the night before due to contractions) but still-I wanted a completely natural birth.
I want to be completely whole foods/organic when it comes to the foods that I am feeding my family. However, first of all it is quite expensive and second of all I am somewhat lazy at times when it comes to making meals. Quicker is so much easier and I hate that sometimes I sacrifice nutrition or even variety for something that is easier.
The neat thing is that while I am not quite where I would like to be I am a lot farther towards healthier living then I was a year ago but still-I want to be where I NEED to be...now.
I want to have a perfect house. Real life-it is hard for me to motivate myself and so it does not get cleaned the way it needs to. Actually right now it does not really count because we don't even have a house since we are in NY with family but still-I want to create a haven for my husband and son.
The neat thing is that soon we will be heading back to Florida and I will have the opportunity to work on being more motivated and creating a haven for my family in my little white house.
I want to do so many DIY projects! Thing is that I just don't have or don't MAKE the time.
I want to change that. I want to MAKE time for projects instead of just being in awe of them when I see them on pinterest.
I want to be able to share the latest thing that the Lord has been teaching me or write a devotional that He has laid on my heart. Truth to be told I can't because I have really been struggling with spending time with Him.
That is GOING to change. And it started last night when Jason and I sat and prayed over Elijah and asked the Lord to help us be parents that HE wanted us to be. It started when I asked the Lord's forgiveness for not MAKING HIM A PRIORITY and trying to live life...well, without Him.
One of my biggest vices is the time that I spend on the computer. It really is hard for me to not waste hours of my time on it. That was also something I repented of.
No. I am not perfect. In fact, I am far from it. But I want to be more like Jesus and right now that involves me taking the time to really re-prioritize my time starting with the time I spend on the computer.
I will still be around but-I will be much more careful to not let wanting my life to be like ____________________ but instead focus on the life that God has given me and living it first and foremost for HIS honor and glory and then investing it into my little family that He has blessed me with.
I am not perfect.
I am me and yet I am striving to be more like HIM. Because without Jesus Christ...life is really never truly able to be LIVED.
So many times life is about me. So many times all I think about is what I want in a situation. It needs to end. Jesus needs to be the center of my life once again instead of me trying to fit Him in my life where it is most convenient for me.
What about you? Do you ever struggle with feeling imperfect or with comparing yourself to those around you? Do you struggle with not having Jesus the center of your life? Have you talked to the Lord about it lately?
We had communion today for church and I sat in the back ,with my sweet little man cooing away, and I talked to the Lord about it. About making Him the center of my life once again. About spending more consistent time with Him in the Word and in prayer.
I re-surrendered.
And I continue to re-surrender...and I am pretty sure it will be an everyday thing. But you know what-that is ok. Because honestly that is real life for me right now...
...my life is not perfect.
That is humbling.
So here I sit wanting to blog about the cloth diapers that I used, the completely natural 17 hour labor that I had, the amazing whole foods I have been making for my family, my clean house, the latest DIY project I have been doing, the latest devotional the Lord has laid on my heart and so many other things. Yet. I can't.
Real life of Katy here:
I wanted to use cloth diapers, even bought them. They are adorable and I love them. However, when little man was two weeks old we took a trip to NY and they got left behind. So, he has been in pampers for his entire 6 week life.
Now, there is a really neat alternative (completely chemical free and plant based disposables) that I will be using that I just found and LOVE (more on that later) but still-I wanted to do cloth.
I was so set on a natural home birth. I had it all planned out in my mind and was SO excited for it. Then-my blood pressure rose and I ended up in a hospital with a birth that EVERYTHING I did not want to happen-happened.
I felt HORRIBLE for having an epidural and really struggled with GUILT that I was not a good enough Mom for my son just because I could not handle the pain (my labor was induced).
The thing was though that once I got the epidural I was able to sleep for a few hours which I really needed for when I started to push (considering I had not eaten anything and had not really slept well the night before due to contractions) but still-I wanted a completely natural birth.
I want to be completely whole foods/organic when it comes to the foods that I am feeding my family. However, first of all it is quite expensive and second of all I am somewhat lazy at times when it comes to making meals. Quicker is so much easier and I hate that sometimes I sacrifice nutrition or even variety for something that is easier.
The neat thing is that while I am not quite where I would like to be I am a lot farther towards healthier living then I was a year ago but still-I want to be where I NEED to be...now.
I want to have a perfect house. Real life-it is hard for me to motivate myself and so it does not get cleaned the way it needs to. Actually right now it does not really count because we don't even have a house since we are in NY with family but still-I want to create a haven for my husband and son.
The neat thing is that soon we will be heading back to Florida and I will have the opportunity to work on being more motivated and creating a haven for my family in my little white house.
I want to do so many DIY projects! Thing is that I just don't have or don't MAKE the time.
I want to change that. I want to MAKE time for projects instead of just being in awe of them when I see them on pinterest.
I want to be able to share the latest thing that the Lord has been teaching me or write a devotional that He has laid on my heart. Truth to be told I can't because I have really been struggling with spending time with Him.
That is GOING to change. And it started last night when Jason and I sat and prayed over Elijah and asked the Lord to help us be parents that HE wanted us to be. It started when I asked the Lord's forgiveness for not MAKING HIM A PRIORITY and trying to live life...well, without Him.
One of my biggest vices is the time that I spend on the computer. It really is hard for me to not waste hours of my time on it. That was also something I repented of.
No. I am not perfect. In fact, I am far from it. But I want to be more like Jesus and right now that involves me taking the time to really re-prioritize my time starting with the time I spend on the computer.
I will still be around but-I will be much more careful to not let wanting my life to be like ____________________ but instead focus on the life that God has given me and living it first and foremost for HIS honor and glory and then investing it into my little family that He has blessed me with.
I am not perfect.
I am me and yet I am striving to be more like HIM. Because without Jesus Christ...life is really never truly able to be LIVED.
So many times life is about me. So many times all I think about is what I want in a situation. It needs to end. Jesus needs to be the center of my life once again instead of me trying to fit Him in my life where it is most convenient for me.
What about you? Do you ever struggle with feeling imperfect or with comparing yourself to those around you? Do you struggle with not having Jesus the center of your life? Have you talked to the Lord about it lately?
We had communion today for church and I sat in the back ,with my sweet little man cooing away, and I talked to the Lord about it. About making Him the center of my life once again. About spending more consistent time with Him in the Word and in prayer.
I re-surrendered.
And I continue to re-surrender...and I am pretty sure it will be an everyday thing. But you know what-that is ok. Because honestly that is real life for me right now...