Learning to live a moment at a time6:14 PM
We were thrilled when we found out that a second boy! Two times everything. Two times the children. Two times the joy. Two times the hugs and kisses. Two times the love.
While I have found that to be very true over the past almost seven months I have also found that there are a lot of other things that multiply by two.
Two times the exhaustion. Two times the stress. Two times the needs. Two times the training needed. Two times the exasperation. Two times the mess. Two times the tears.
And yet-I look at those two faces smiling up at me and my heart melts. For years my hearts desire was to be a wife and Mama and truly the Lord has given me the desire of my heart.
Is it the perfection that I thought it would be? Absolutely not!
Is every difficult moment worth it when those chubby arms wrap themselves around my neck and little fingers reach for my hair? Absolutely.
Just an example:
Lie: Well, her house is absolutely perfect all the time and no matter what I do I just can NOT catch up on mine-I am a failure.
Truth: Yes, her house may SEEM perfect all the time but I am sure there are times when it really is not perfect and who knows maybe she has children that are above two and can help do chores in a bigger capacity.
So, I struggle with keeping my house clean BUT I have been really working hard on DE cluttering and re-organizing and making sure that everything has its very own place. I am not there yet but Lord willing I will continue to grow and learn as time goes on.
I am realizing that life has many different seasons. This season of (still) adjusting to two sweet baby boys is hard and exhausting and leaves me in tears many times and YET-seasons change and I know that all too soon this season will be over and done and I will be missing these precious moments with my baby boys.
I can not do this with out the Lord. So many days so many things seem so absolutely impossible and yet I serve the God Who NOTHING is impossible for.
I am realizing that I need to turn to Him a little bit more and learn to rely on Him not week by week or day by day but moment by moment. Each and everyday looking to him for the strength to make an eternal difference in the life of my precious little boys.
Moment by moment with Jesus by my side seems a lot more doable then days and weeks and months without Him.
"Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear.
For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes.
Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds!
Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life ?
Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?"
What about you? Are there things you are learning about or dealing in your life that sometimes just seem so impossible?
What are your favorite scriptures for when you are feeling overwhelmed with life?