Oh that iPhone...

My Dad got one. Then my brother. Then my sister. Then it was finally my turn! Well, our turn. We had just moved to our new apartment and it made the most sense. I mean we didn't have internet so it would help us when we needed to look something up. It took awesome pictures and movies and my camera was not really working that well. Plus it was time for an upgrade on our phone so we got it free.

Be still my beating heart!

I was so excited. I started to instagram, tweet, facebook, check my email, watch a movie on YouTube, catch up on my new favorite show and in about two hours become absolutely obsessed with my new iPhone.

Yes, it was handy.

But all to soon it became an incredible addiction in my life and not only started to effect my relationship with the Lord but also with everyone around me.

As someone who has struggled quite a bit with managing my time and not being addicted to social media and my computer it is laughable now that I look back. At the time however, I just tried to convince myself that it was going to be just fine.

Right.

For months the Lord was whispering to my heart. Urging me to fully surrender the one thing that had truly overtaken my life.

"Give up the iPhone Katy. It has become an idol in your life."

"No it hasn't Lord," I would reply, "It does not come before You! I still read."

Yes, I did still read. It took about 5 minutes daily-while I was spending over 5 hours a day wrapped up in my own little world of social networking.

Soon however, the mere moments I had been attempting to spend with the Lord dwindled slowly away. I was too busy to notice. Most of the time.

Soon however I began to notice I was angry a whole lot more. Bitterness and unforgiveness towards some people and some situations were taking their toll as I began to lash out at those around me who I love most dearly.

Where did I turn to in all this?

Jesus? The Word? Prayer?

Sad to say I did not go to my Heavenly Father-even as He stood their with hands stretched out to receive me.

Instead, I began to find my satisfaction and fulfillment in my iPhone.

This went on for months.

I was absolutely miserable and all along I KNEW what I needed to do! I needed to make no provision for the flesh and get rid of my iPhone and surrender to my Savior with my WHOLE life.

But I refused to do it.

I lost my joy. I felt like I was shriveling up inside.

Always looking for satisfaction.

Always looking for fulfillment.

But never actually surrendering to the Lord so I could find true joy and peace in living once more.

Finally one day my brother just completely randomly asked me why I was so angry all the time.

I was shocked that it was that obvious I had not been doing well! That was the turning point.

A few days later I surrendered and my husband and I went to the Verizon store and got my phone switched over to a regular one.

How can I even explain the joy that obedience and surrender to the Lord Jesus brings.

I felt as though I truly was able to live again.

I started having my devotions every day, really cleaning my house, exercising, reading books and spending more time with my sweet little man.

Freedom.

Surrender brought freedom.

Funny how the enemy twisted freedom in my mind.

True freedom and fulfillment is not found in social media. It is not found in family. It is not found in friends.

True freedom and fulfillment is found in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

Is He asking you to surrender something to Him today?

Do not hesitate!

So I got rid of my iPhone...and it was the best thing I have ever done!